Untreated Addiction Creates Confusion not Harmony
Kelly K. knows his stuff. Here is his latest entry about the perils of living a life "in your addiction."
It is a constant battle trying to keep a addicted mind at bay. Thank heavens we have a program that ask that we remind ourselves that we need help in different areas of our daily lives. We have a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition.
If you are someone (like many of us are) who is suffering from a hundred forms of
- fear
- self-delusion
- self seeking
- self pity
It might be a disappointing surprise that these symptoms don't "just go away" when a person gets clean and sober. How do we deal with this and really learn to practice these principles in all our affairs?
The Two Kinds of Recovering People
A friend of my mind often says to me there are 2 kinds of recovering people that you will meet:
One that is "pretty messed up in the head" and knows it. This person treats their addiction daily and understands and realizes that unless he/she does some things daily, it will be only a matter of time before they start producing confusion rather then harmony. This person will be fighting with everything and everyone and spreading their "DIS-ease."
The other type of recovering person is also really sick but creates the maximum amount of confusion and mayhem in their lives because they suffer from UNTREATED alcoholism and drug addiction. This person may not even have a clue that there is even anything wrong.
This is a formula for unhealthy relationships. Living like this (and dealing with someone like this) can be exhausting and confusing a lot of the time.
I really need to be reminded on a daily basis that I am not only fighting
alcoholism and drug addiction, I am also fighting a "DIS – ease" that centers in my mind. My "DIS-ease" often tells me that I do not even have a disease.
In my daily morning meditation I need to be reminded of "who I am" and also "who I am not." I need to remember that just because I got clean and sober it does not mean that my character defects went away. I must stay "right sized" daily to truly stop fighting everything and everyone. This way, I can produce harmony in my life and in others' lives.
I am trying to practice these principles in all my affairs
If anyone out there wants to talk about recovery please email me at kkettle-at-crchealth.com
-Kelly K
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